I’ve re-written the beginning of this post so many things I don’t know how to phrase it properly. And this was the only way I could think of rephrasing it.

I kinda wish I had the courage to go for things I know I can’t have.

Because I really desire them deep inside. 

Although wrong some may be, desire can be dark and also tempting.

That’s when I hit myself with the reality that I can’t have these things. Just because it’s not possible or I’m not good enough to attain them. And I guess it helps.

Ya. That’s it for today.